I think it is time to let folks know a bit about what my personal life has been like for the last year. I hope this will end speculation about me, but I know it won’t. I just think folks deserve to know a bit more about what my situation has been like and how it has greatly improved in the past couple of months.
At the beginning of last summer, I realized that I was pretty broken and that I needed some time to heal and to focus on myself and my family. While I had lost my third child less than a year before, I had never taken the time to grieve – I wanted to stay strong for my family. But some things you just cannot avoid. So I decided to resign from the church I was pastoring and took a job refurbishing exercise equipment for a local Heath club. The job basically consisted of taking weight machines apart, moving them to a warehouse, removing the rust from the steel with an angle grinder, repainting them and the reassembling them in the gym. It was very physically demanding work for me, but I believe it helped me work through some very difficult issues in my life. I think it helped get me back in my right mind.
Back in early Spring of this year,, I felt good enough to begin applying for churches to pastor again. I was called to serve by a great church back in early July. The position was supposed to begin a few months earlier, but things never quite happen the way we plan. This church has already been nicer to me than any other I have served. The compensation is good and they are also paying for me to finish my graduate work as well. The only difficulty is that it is a 500 mile move and we cannot afford to buy a house yet. So until the end of the year, I am living in a rental the church is paying for, but my wife and children remain back home (where rent and the cost of living is much cheaper). We do get to see each other every six weeks or so. And we know that this is a big step forward for our family.
But the bottom line is that this new job is giving me the free time, resources and peace of mind to finish up my Appendix N Adventures Kickstarter and Subscription as well as the remaining Delving Deeper shipments that remain. I hope to be completely through with all of my behind projects by the end of the year.
None of this makes up for the terrible delays in the project, but I hope it helps others who are going through difficult times to see that things can get better.